Okay, I must admit that I totally cried during this movie. It forced me to see the truth and question it. Plus, it also helped me ease my current life pains. Throughout the movie, I kept asking myself, "What if this happened to me?" In a couple years or so, I'd probably living my life just like the main character - completely unfulfilled. It's probably how most of us are all living. The main character didn't even have much friends or successes, it was really depressing to think about.
But then I had an epiphany at the end of movie. It happened during the scene where Adam's parents and best friend heard of the surgery's success. They were so happy. At that moment, I realized your life is not measured by the amount of people you share it with or the hardships that bring you down. So what if most of the friends that you've made over the last decade have left you behind, deserted you, or forgot about you? So what if your father refuses to acknowledge you as his own daughter and has no desire to even try to contact you? That isn't how your life should be perceived, you have to focus on the people your are still there for you, the people who are standing by your side at this very moment and care for you. Your life is measured by how you treat these people. Do you show them how much you appreciate them everyday? Do you live your life to the fullest when your around them? Do you make the time spent with them count?
And if you tell yourself that there's no one like that in your life then you're probably (A) Oblivious and blind or (B) Scared. You're not alone, I mean you're reading this right now. And this is me so, I'm with ya. You know me now, but I don't know you - so tell me who you are if you're feeling alone. Who knows? We might even be the best of buds.
Anyway, that's all I wanted to share.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Decisions
At the moment, I have to come up with a decision that will effect my future. I have to figure out what I want to do with my life. I have only thought of two possibilities: doing the right thing for the people I care for or doing the right thing for myself.
Those two choices, whether I like it or not, lead me down on separate paths. And I hate it so much that I haven't come it terms with the choice until now. I let it slide as if I didn't need to carefully think it over. I believed that if I left it alone enough that the choice will be chosen itself. That was stupid of me, you can't believe that everything will work out in the end if you're not doing anything to make sure that it does. Now I have to make up for the time I wasted.
Like I said my two choices were to live my life doing the right thing for the people that I love or doing the right thing for myself. Both are selfish and both can lead me to happiness.
I can be noble and fulfill my obligations to my family, spend my entire life making sure that I've given them the life that they've always wanted. Work for the title and power, so I can be able to give my mom that big house that she's always wanted. The things that she deserves because she has spent most of her life doing what's best for the family. I know I owe it to her to make her life better, because right now it sucks. And I'll be happy to do it too. And then I can finally get the closure of proving my father wrong. To show him that he left behind an amazing family and to get the satisfaction of him realizing that we weren't nothing.
Or I can live my life the way I would have if it was better. If I didn't have to worry about if my family had enough money to pay off next week's debts. I can do what I've always wanted. I can get the education that I truly want and save people's lives without worrying about my responsibilities to my family. I can get my degree and go off to the Peace Corps, where I'll being making the world a better place. I'd help others making their lives better, and by doing so, fulfilling my life's purpose.
Those are my choices and I still can't decide which one is the right thing to do. But at the moment, I'm still seeking out other options.
Those two choices, whether I like it or not, lead me down on separate paths. And I hate it so much that I haven't come it terms with the choice until now. I let it slide as if I didn't need to carefully think it over. I believed that if I left it alone enough that the choice will be chosen itself. That was stupid of me, you can't believe that everything will work out in the end if you're not doing anything to make sure that it does. Now I have to make up for the time I wasted.
Like I said my two choices were to live my life doing the right thing for the people that I love or doing the right thing for myself. Both are selfish and both can lead me to happiness.
I can be noble and fulfill my obligations to my family, spend my entire life making sure that I've given them the life that they've always wanted. Work for the title and power, so I can be able to give my mom that big house that she's always wanted. The things that she deserves because she has spent most of her life doing what's best for the family. I know I owe it to her to make her life better, because right now it sucks. And I'll be happy to do it too. And then I can finally get the closure of proving my father wrong. To show him that he left behind an amazing family and to get the satisfaction of him realizing that we weren't nothing.
Or I can live my life the way I would have if it was better. If I didn't have to worry about if my family had enough money to pay off next week's debts. I can do what I've always wanted. I can get the education that I truly want and save people's lives without worrying about my responsibilities to my family. I can get my degree and go off to the Peace Corps, where I'll being making the world a better place. I'd help others making their lives better, and by doing so, fulfilling my life's purpose.
Those are my choices and I still can't decide which one is the right thing to do. But at the moment, I'm still seeking out other options.
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